People not coming from Russia may earn my eternalish gratitude by giving me any information on where to find the music or video of the 2005 Lenny Pickett Beowulf that was put on by the Irish Repertory Theater.
People not coming from Russia may earn my eternalish gratitude by giving me any information on where to find the music or video of the 2005 Lenny Pickett Beowulf that was put on by the Irish Repertory Theater.
Sam Francis
Jan. 1st, 2026 11:01 pmMirrored from Madam Nakamura-Branchevska.
Today, from an incredibly thoughtful gift of Younger Kid (very smooth genmaicha from LACMA) I learned about Sam Francis (there is at least one of his works at SF MOMA but apparently not the one targeted towards me 😉 ). He’s an abstract expressionist, like Pollock, but while Pollock’s paintings feel like they would beat one up if they only could Francis’ ones seem joyful. The emotional lift is similar to what I get from Junko Funada and Ellsworth Kelly.
Good thing I just recently decided to do a museum nook, so I’ll have somewhere to put a reminder to myself.





Mirrored from Madam Nakamura-Branchevska.
by Morgan Rowanwaif
Every Dane down in Heorot liked to revel a lot
But the monster who lived just north of Heorot did not
Grendel hated the Danes and all manly races.
He hated their homes! He hated their faces!
He stared from his lake with a sour, Grendel frown
At the warm lighted windows above in their town.
For he knew every Dane in that gold-timbered spot
Was busy now, planning a post-viking blot.
“They’re roasting their cattle!” he snarled with a sneer.
“Tomorrow’s the blot! It’s practically here”
Then he growled, with his troll fingers nervously drumming,
“I MUST find some way to stop men-folk from coming!”
For tomorrow, he knew, every Dane-man and Swede
Would wake bright and early. They’d rush for their mead!
And then! Oh, the noise! Oh, the Noise! Noise! Noise! Noise!
That’s one thing he hated! The NOISE! NOISE! NOISE! NOISE!
Then the Danes, young and old, would sit down to a feast.
And they’d feast! And they’d feast!
And they’d FEAST! FEAST! FEAST! FEAST!
They would feast on nut pudding, and fruit, and smoked beast
Which was something that Grendel couldn’t stand in the least!
And THEN, they’d do something he liked least of all!
Every Dane up in Heorot, the tall and the small,
Would sit all together, with drinking horns swinging.
They’d hark to the skald. And the Danes would start singing!
They’d sing! And they’d sing!
And they’d SING! SING! SING! SING!
And the more Grendel thought of this hall-shaking sing,
The more Grendel thought, “I must stop this whole thing!
“Why, for many a year I’ve put up with it now!
“I must stop this revel from coming! … But HOW?”
Then he got an idea! An awful idea!
The troll got a terrible, awful idea!
“I know just what to do!” Grendel laughed dark and deep.
“I will wait until all the Danes pass out asleep.”
And he chuckled and clucked, “What a great Grendel spree!
“With the Danes all asleep, they’re like nuts off a tree.”
All their windows were dark. Quiet snow filled the air.
All the Danes were all dreaming sweet dreams without care
When he snuck to the hall of King Hrothgar’s Great Chair.
“This is night number one,” Grendel said there and then
And he raised up his claws, and he slew thirty men.
The Danes tried to fight, but he brushed them aside.
No sword-point or arrow could pierce his thick hide.
Then he slunk through the deer-covered doorway with glee.
“Pooh-pooh to the Danes! If you’d just let me be.”
And so things were – for twelve long, dark years.
Until Hrothgar’s story reached Beowulf’s ears.
So he gathered his friends with tales of great gains,
And left the land of the Geats for the land of the Danes.
“You’ll see, my good men,” he was happily humming.
“They’re finding out now that Beowulf is coming!”
“When we meet with Hrothgar, I know just what they’ll do!
“Their mouths will hang open a minute or two
“Then the Danes down in Heorot will all cry WOO-HOO!”
When they reached the far shores, they met with the guard.
Their manner was grim and their faces were hard.
They didn’t cry “woo-hoo” to welcome the Geat,
“Look,” they said. “More warriors for Grendel to eat.”
They led Beowulf to the hall to meet with the King
(Who had saved Beowulf’s father at a long ago Thing).
Hrothgar welcomed the hero and called for a feast.
“This young man will help us get rid of our beast.”
They boiled beef and chicken. They baked some fresh bread.
They brought apples and cheese until all were well fed.
And after the King and his jarls did their toasting,
They settled on down and started in boasting.
“I am Beowulf, son of Edgetho, Prince of the Geats,
“I’ve done many great deeds, and performed many feats.
“I battled a sea monster off the Island of Yarna
“And killed the great wolf that was plaguing Dawlarna
“I’ve fought many battles and won many wars,
“I’ve killed lots of monsters! Now tell me of yours.”
King Hrothgar sighed and drank from his beer,
“Whatever they say, Grendel’s worse than you hear.
“We stabbed him with swords! We hit him with bricks!
“We beat him with polearms and Celt-bashing sticks!
“But nothing we did had any effect!
“He just goes on killing my warriors unchecked.
“The gods have all left us, they don’t hear our prayers,
“And that is how once proud Heorot fares.”
Beowulf put his hand on Hrothgar’s heavy shoulder.
“I will now make my already bold boast still bolder!
“Not only will I fight this beast and prevail,
“I will fight with no weapon. I will fight with no maile.
“I will fight. And I swear I will die if I fail.”
The cheers of the Danes made the great hall’s walls shake,
And it wakened old Grendel below in his lake.
“They never will learn. No, you can’t teach a Dane.
“I will have to give them a lesson again.”
He waited ‘til darkness filled up the hall
And the sounds of the revel stilled to nothing at all.
Then Grendel said, “It’s time!” and he started on up
Toward the hall where the King lay a-snooze in his cup.
He tore down the doors, didn’t try to be silent,
Grabbed the first Geat and got frightfully violent.
Beowulf jumped up and charged with a rush
And grappled with Grendel in a side-smashing crush.
The old troll howled, amazed to find
A mere, little human with strength of this kind.
They scrapped and scrabbled, they rolled and they wrestled,
The hall’s tables tumbled and the trestles untrestled.
Grendel tried to run, but Beowulf wouldn’t let
The monster who terrorized Heorot go yet.
The other men attacked, but their swords went unheeded,
‘Till Beowulf saw the opening he needed.
He grabbed Grendel’s arm, and he gave it a wrench
When he heard a loud sound like the crack of a bench.
He turned around fast, and pulled the arm with him,
And tore off Grendel’s shoulder, like a birk from a chithim.
And what happened then …? Well … in Denmark they say
That Grendel’s cruel heart lost three gallons that day.
And the moment the Geat’s grip didn’t feel quite so tight,
He whizzed through the door in the cold, frozen night.
And all that he left on the floor of the hall
Was his arm, which Beowulf hung on the wall.
Mirrored from Madam Nakamura-Branchevska.
TIL (from the amazingly patient Younger Child) that phonetic glyphs were a thing. To celebrate, here’s a nice detailed instruction on how to read those (including determinative glyphs which, of course, I also had no idea about).
The Future
Nov. 22nd, 2025 12:21 amMirrored from Madam Nakamura-Branchevska.
“The future will be happy.
Super-fast trains will go everywhere and all cars will be self-driving.
Marine research will be done by whales. Orca-founded start-ups will disrupt and dominate the fishing industry.
Walls of fruit trees will rise along every city street.
Office towers will become apartments.
Robots will do all household chores.
VR will become fully immersive.
Everyone will have a hobby.
Africa will be flooded with Chinese tourists.
But,
most importantly,
in the future
I will (still and always) live with you.
Anti-anxiety site
Nov. 17th, 2025 07:38 pmMirrored from Madam Nakamura-Branchevska.
I keep losing this site and re-finding it, so am going to put it here.
I like how the author, Marc Balaban, takes the same basic facts as Sara Teasdale, and turns the conclusion into a positive.
(War Time)
There will come soft rains and the smell of the ground,
And swallows circling with their shimmering sound;And frogs in the pools singing at night,
And wild plum trees in tremulous white,Robins will wear their feathery fire
Whistling their whims on a low fence-wire;And not one will know of the war, not one
Will care at last when it is done.Not one would mind, neither bird nor tree
If mankind perished utterly;And Spring herself, when she woke at dawn,
Would scarcely know that we were gone.
R. L. Stevenson on Fanny Osborn
Oct. 27th, 2025 06:41 amMirrored from Madam Nakamura-Branchevska.
1. My wife and I, in one romantic cot
“My wife and I, in one romantic cot,
The world forgetting, by the world forgot,
Or high as the gods upon Olympus dwell,
Pleased with what things we have, and pleased as well
To wait in hope for those which we have not.
She vows in ardour for a horse to trot;
I stake my votive prayers upon a yacht.
Which shall be first remembered, who can tell,—
My wife or I?
Harvests of flowers o’er all our garden plot,
She dreams; and I to enrich a darker spot,—
My unprovided cellar. Both to swell
Our narrow cottage huge as a hotel,
Where portly friends may come and share the lot
Of wife and I.
2. My Wife
“Trusty, dusky, vivid, true,
With eyes of gold and bramble-dew,
Steel-true and blade-straight,
The great artificer
Made my mate.
Honour, anger, valour, fire;
A love that life could never tire,
Death quench or evil stir,
The mighty master
Gave to her.
Teacher, tender comrade, wife,
A fellow-farer true through life,
Heart-whole and soul-free
The august father
Gave to me.
Mirrored from Madam Nakamura-Branchevska.
I do not know how, but despite innumerable allusions I’ve never actually read the poem itself. It’s far scarier than I expected, and I expected something as scary as My Last Duchess.
1.
My first thought was, he lied in every word,
That hoary cripple, with malicious eye
Askance to watch the working of his lie
On mine, and mouth scarce able to afford
Suppression of the glee that pursed and scored
Its edge at one more victim gained thereby.
2.
What else should he be set for, with his staff?
What, save to waylay with his lies, ensnare
All travellers who might find him posted there,
And ask the road? I guessed what skull-like laugh
Would break, what crutch ‘gin write my epitaph
For pastime in the dusty thoroughfare,
3.
If at his counsel I should turn aside
Into that ominous tract which, all agree,
Hides the Dark Tower. Yet acquiescingly
I did turn as he pointed; neither pride
Nor hope rekindling at the end descried,
So much as gladness that some end might be.
4.
For, what with my whole world-wide wandering,
What with my search drawn out thro’ years, my hope
Dwindled into a ghost not fit to cope
With that obstreperous joy success would bring,—
I hardly tried now to rebuke the spring
My heart made, finding failure in its scope.
5.
As when a sick man very near to death
Seems dead indeed, and feels begin and end
The tears and takes the farewell of each friend,
And hears one bid the other go, draw breath
Freelier outside, (“since all is o’er” he saith,
“And the blow fall’n no grieving can amend”)
6.
While some discuss if near the other graves
Be room enough for this, and when a day
Suits best for carrying the corpse away,
With care about the banners, scarves and staves,—
And still the man hears all, and only craves
He may not shame such tender love and stay.
7.
Thus, I had so long suffered in this quest,
Heard failure prophesied so oft, been writ
So many times among “The Band”—to wit,
The knights who to the Dark Tower’s search addressed
Their steps—that just to fail as they, seemed best,
And all the doubt was now—should I be fit.
8.
So, quiet as despair, I turned from him,
That hateful cripple, out of his highway
Into the path he pointed. All the day
Had been a dreary one at best, and dim
Was settling to its close, yet shot one grim
Red leer to see the plain catch its estray.
9.
For mark! no sooner was I fairly found
Pledged to the plain, after a pace or two,
Than pausing to throw backward a last view
To the safe road, ’twas gone! gray plain all round!
Nothing but plain to the horizon’s bound.
I might go on; nought else remained to do.
10.
So, on I went. I think I never saw
Such starved ignoble nature; nothing throve:
For flowers—as well expect a cedar grove!
But cockle, spurge, according to their law
Might propagate their kind, with none to awe,
You’d think: a burr had been a treasure-trove.
11.
No! penury, inertness, and grimace,
In some strange sort, were the land’s portion. “See
Or shut your eyes,” —said Nature peevishly—
“It nothing skills: I cannot help my case:
The Judgment’s fire must cure this place,
Calcine its clods and set my prisoners free.”
12.
If there pushed any ragged thistle-stalk
Above its mates, the head was chopped—the bents
Were jealous else. What made those holes and rents
In the dock’s harsh swarth leaves—bruised as to baulk
All hope of greenness? ’tis a brute must walk
Pashing their life out, with a brute’s intents.
13.
As for the grass, it grew as scant as hair
In leprosy—thin dry blades pricked the mud
Which underneath looked kneaded up with blood.
One stiff blind horse, his every bone a-stare,
Stood stupefied, however he came there—
Thrust out past service from the devil’s stud!
14.
Alive? he might be dead for all I know,
With that red gaunt and colloped neck a-strain,
And shut eyes underneath the rusty mane.
Seldom went such grotesqueness with such woe:
I never saw a brute I hated so—
He must be wicked to deserve such pain.
15.
I shut my eyes and turned them on my heart.
As a man calls for wine before he fights,
I asked one draught of earlier, happier sights,
Ere fitly I could hope to play my part.
Think first, fight afterwards—the soldier’s art:
One taste of the old time sets all to rights!
16.
Not it! I fancied Cuthbert’s reddening face
Beneath its garniture of curly gold,
Dear fellow, till I almost felt him fold
An arm in mine to fix me to the place,
That way he used. Alas! one night’s disgrace!
Out went my heart’s new fire and left it cold.
17.
Giles, then, the soul of honour—there he stands
Frank as ten years ago when knighted first.
What honest men should dare (he said) he durst.
Good—but the scene shifts—faugh! what hangman’s
Pin to his breast a parchment? His own hands
Read it. Poor traitor, spit upon and curst!
18.
Better this present than a past like that—
Back therefore to my darkening path again.
No sound, no sight as far as eye could strain.
Will the night send a howlet or a bat?
I asked: when something on the dismal flat
Came to arrest my thoughts and change their train.
19.
A sudden little river crossed my path
As unexpected as a serpent comes.
No sluggish tide congenial to the glooms—
This, as it frothed by, might have been a bath
For the fiend’s glowing hoof—to see the wrath
Of its black eddy bespate with flakes and spumes.
20.
So, petty yet so spiteful! all along
Low scrubby alders kneeled down over it;
Drenched willows flung them headlong in a fit
Of mute despair, a suicidal throng:
The river which had done them all the wrong,
Whate’er that was, rolled by, deterred no whit.
21.
Which, while I forded,—good saints, how I feared
To set my foot upon a dead man’s cheek,
Each step, or feel the spear I thrust to seek
For hollows, tangled in his hair or beard!
—It may have been a water-rat I speared,
But, ugh! it sounded like a baby’s shriek.
22.
Glad was I when I reached the other bank.
Now for a better country. Vain presage!
Who were the strugglers, what war did they wage
Whose savage trample thus could pad the dank
Soil to a plash? toads in a poisoned tank,
Or wild cats in a redhot iron cage—
23.
The fight must so have seemed in that fell cirque.
What kept them there, with all the plain to choose?
No foot-print leading to that horrid mews,
None out of it: mad brewage set to work
Their brains, no doubt, like galley-slaves the Turk
Pits for his pastime, Christians against Jews.
24.
And more than that—a furlong on—why, there!
What bad use was that engine for, that wheel,
Or brake, not wheel—that harrow fit to reel
Men’s bodies out like silk? with all the air
Of Tophet’s tool, on earth left unaware,
Or brought to sharpen its rusty teeth of steel.
25.
Then came a bit of stubbed ground, once a wood,
Next a marsh, it would seem, and now mere earth
Desperate and done with; (so a fool finds mirth,
Makes a thing and then mars it, till his mood
Changes and off he goes!) within a rood
Bog, clay and rubble, sand and stark black dearth.
26.
Now blotches rankling, coloured gay and grim,
Now patches where some leanness of the soil’s
Broke into moss or substances like boils;
Then came some palsied oak, a cleft in him
Like a distorted mouth that splits its rim
Gaping at death, and dies while it recoils.
27.
And just as far as ever from the end!
Nought in the distance but the evening, nought,
To point my footstep further! At the thought,
A great black bird, Apollyon’s bosom-friend,
Sailed past, nor beat his wide wing dragon-penned
That brushed my cap—perchance the guide I sought.
28.
For, looking up aware I somehow grew,
‘Spite of the dusk, the plain had given place
All round to mountains—with such name to grace
Mere ugly heights and heaps now stol’n in view.
How thus they had surprised me,—solve it, you!
How to get from them was no plainer case.
29.
Yet half I seemed to recognise some trick
Of mischief happened to me, God knows when—
In a bad dream perhaps. Here ended, then,
Progress this way. When, in the very nick
Of giving up, one time more, came a click
As when a trap shuts—you’re inside the den!
30.
Burningly it came on me all at once,
This was the place! those two hills on the right
Crouched like two bulls locked horn in horn in fight—
While to the left, a tall scalped mountain . . . Dunce,
Fool, to be dozing at the very nonce,
After a life spent training for the sight!
31.
What in the midst lay but the Tower itself?
The round squat turret, blind as the fool’s heart,
Built of brown stone, without a counterpart
In the whole world. The tempest’s mocking elf
Points to the shipman thus the unseen shelf
He strikes on, only when the timbers start.
32.
Not see? because of night perhaps?—Why, day
Came back again for that! before it left,
The dying sunset kindled through a cleft:
The hills, like giants at a hunting, lay—
Chin upon hand, to see the game at bay,—
“Now stab and end the creature—to the heft!”
33.
Not hear? when noise was everywhere? it tolled
Increasing like a bell. Names in my ears,
Of all the lost adventurers my peers,—
How such an one was strong, and such was bold,
And such was fortunate, yet each of old
Lost, lost! one moment knelled the woe of years.
34.
There they stood, ranged along the hill-sides—met
To view the last of me, a living frame
For one more picture! in a sheet of flame
I saw them and I knew them all. And yet
Dauntless the slug-horn to my lips I set
And blew. “Childe Roland to the Dark Tower came.”
More buildings at Göbekli Tepe
Oct. 17th, 2025 12:50 amMirrored from Madam Nakamura-Branchevska.
I’m really excited!
Interesting links
Oct. 16th, 2025 07:39 pmMirrored from Madam Nakamura-Branchevska.
- Germany has cool parental retreats
- History is, as usual, worse than I knew, but at least Things are being Done.
- Fire situation in California is, as usual, even worse than I knew but at least there are People thinking of Things to Do.
- Epigenetics ftw, mice fathers who do a lot of exercise pass down the benefits to their offspring
- There may finally be an antidote for carbon monoxide poisoning
- Mattel continues to be progressive (good, because they’re a mine canary for social movements)

Mirrored from Madam Nakamura-Branchevska.
I just made a whole new online game (guess sound based on a snippet) in under half an hour. Can’t remember feeling like this since the day in 1998 when I automated a morning data batch by combining a .bat file with VBA in Excel. Stout Cortez with his eagle eyes would totally grok me.
And while I was at that I also learned how to make movie clips (yes, I know, I’m about 10 years too late, but I haven’t needed any until today) and gifs.
Polychromic antiquities
Oct. 13th, 2025 01:40 amMirrored from Madam Nakamura-Branchevska.
Ever so often, usually on Facebook, people “discover” that ancient Greek and Roman sculptures were colored. Which is really funny because the trend of discovering it is at least 150 (Tanagra hoard 1870) years old. https://www.musee-orsay.fr/en/whats-on/exhibitions/presentation/spectacular-art-jean-leon-gerome-1824-1904


Outlaw nuns
Oct. 12th, 2025 08:27 pmMirrored from Madam Nakamura-Branchevska.
It really bugs me when great true stories have narratively unsatisfying endings. This is a prime example: https://melmagazine.com/en-us/story/belgian-outlaw-nuns
Sci-fi in our daily lives
Oct. 12th, 2025 08:16 pmMirrored from Madam Nakamura-Branchevska.
Yesterday I went to the Good Samaritan Miniatures Expo. Haven’t been condescended to so hard since I was a teen, but I saw some amazing things and got an impressive haul of stuff for the kind of prices that don’t wake my inner toad.

I also learned that there’s a miniatures museum in Tucson where a hologram (!!!) follows you from room to room and gives explanations.
So now I have to see it, and also to make for myself the necklace I saw with a miniature cottage inside a pocket watch case (with everything except glass on both sides removed, of course).
Ndlova Youth Choir Bohemian Rhapsody
Oct. 10th, 2025 07:13 pmMirrored from Madam Nakamura-Branchevska.
The Triffids are coming!
Oct. 9th, 2025 06:19 pmMirrored from Madam Nakamura-Branchevska.
Here’s a good and science-fiction-worthy development – plants that have a different new way of taking in carbon dioxide (so, next step up from photosynthesis), which makes them literally wax fat. If the first thing that comes to my head is a plant apocalypse I blame sci-fi.
St. Jerome
Oct. 8th, 2025 12:33 amMirrored from Madam Nakamura-Branchevska.
I’ve never known anything about St. Jerome’s internal life, and having learned this small bit I’m now very sad for him (and his family, who got fourth place in his affections to food, Cicero, and Jesus).
“LETTER XXII. 30
Many years ago, when for the kingdom of heaven’s sake I had cut myself off from home, parents, sister, relations, and—harder still—from the dainty food to which I had been accustomed; and when I was on my way to Jerusalem to wage my warfare, I still could not bring myself to forego the library which I had formed for myself at Rome with great care and toil. And so, miserable man that I was, I would fast only that I might afterwards read Cicero. After many nights spent in vigil, after floods of tears called from my inmost heart, after the recollection of my past sins, I would once more take up Plautus. And when at times I returned to my right mind, and began to read the prophets, their style seemed rude and repellent. I failed to see the light with my blinded eyes; but I attributed the fault not to them, but to the sun. While the old serpent was thus making me his plaything, about the middle of Lent a deep-seated fever fell upon my weakened body, and while it destroyed my rest completely—the story seems hardly credible—it so wasted my unhappy frame that scarcely anything was left of me but skin and bone. Meantime preparations for my funeral went on; my body grew gradually colder, and the warmth of life lingered only in my throbbing breast. Suddenly I was caught up in the spirit and dragged before the judgment seat of the Judge; and here the light was so bright, and those who stood around were so radiant, that I cast myself upon the ground and did not dare to look up. Asked who and what I was I replied: “I am a Christian.” But He who presided said: “Thou liest, thou art a follower of Cicero and not of Christ. For ‘where thy treasure is, there will thy heart be also.’” Instantly I became dumb, and amid the strokes of the lash—for He had ordered me to be scourged—I was tortured more severely still by the fire of conscience, considering with myself that verse, “In the grave who shall give thee thanks?” Yet for all that I began to cry and to bewail myself, saying: “Have mercy upon me, O Lord: have mercy upon me.” Amid the sound of the scourges this cry still made itself heard. At last the bystanders, falling down before the knees of Him who presided, prayed that He would have pity on my youth, and that He would give me space to repent of my error. He might still, they urged, inflict torture on me, should I ever again read the works of the Gentiles. Under the stress of that awful moment I should have been ready to make even still larger promises than these. Accordingly I made oath and called upon His name, saying: “Lord, if ever again I possess worldly books, or if ever again I read such, I have denied Thee.” Dismissed, then, on taking this oath, I returned to the upper world, and, to the surprise of all, I opened upon them eyes so drenched with tears that my distress served to convince even the incredulous. And that this was no sleep nor idle dream, such as those by which we are often mocked, I call to witness the tribunal before which I lay, and the terrible judgment which I feared. May it never, hereafter, be my lot to fall under such an inquisition! I profess that my shoulders were black and blue, that I felt the bruises long after I awoke from my sleep, and that thenceforth I read the books of God with a zeal greater than I had previously given to the books of men.
https://earlychurchtexts.com/public/jerome_letter_22_ciceronian_or_christian.htm
Mirrored from Madam Nakamura-Branchevska.
And the prize for the most sardonic use of “tra-la-la” in a song goes to: Revelge (reveille) by Mahler! https://youtu.be/xglyc6jTid0
English and German lyrics here: https://oxfordsong.org/song/revelge
It’s based on a folk song, so the gruesomeness is to be expected, but still.
Mirrored from Madam Nakamura-Branchevska.
“Линор Горалик
Нет разницы, нет разницы, Аленка.
Твои мертвы, мои убиты горем,
тебе не больно, мне невыносимо,
тебе двенадцать, мне чуть больше трех, –
но вот мы делим яблоко одно
на этой двухминутной переменке, –
сплошной огрызок, твердое, как камень,
но слаще заказных наивных месс
(твои католики, мои придурки).
Последний день, но нам с тобой плевать,
хотя, казалось, мы должны молиться,
гадать, дрожать, подсчитывать грехи,
сдыхать и воскресать от слуха к слуху
о том, кого куда переведут, –
но мы с тобой ушли на подоконник, –
ты ерзаешь, я потною ладошкой
держу тебя за серый воротник,
стараясь не упасть с твоих коленок,
и мы мусолим нашу сигарету,
и я пускаю дым тебе за ухо,
во вмятину, оставленную балкой.
Когда ты в них стреляла, в маму с папой, –
Когда потом взошла на подоконник, –
Когда я шла, куда мне не велели, –
Когда Алеша шел гулять без шарфа, –
Когда Джером бросался под колеса, –
Когда Наташа бабушке хамила, –
Когда Асим взрывал тяжелый пояс, –
Когда Эжен шел к братику с подушкой, –
Когда Илья пошел за этим типом, –
Когда Элен играла зажигалкой, –
Когда Варфоломей поймал котенка, –
нам всем тогда черемухой запахло:
Эжену, Тане, мне, Варфоломею,
Ирине, Аде, и, представь, Илье,
которого тот тип как раз в кустах,
как раз черемухи, – но даже он
сквозь кровь и тряпки смог учуять запах.
Такая, видишь, выдалась минута.
Такой момент в истории черемух.
I really don’t like remembering this poem, but it comes up in my memory regularly, much like, apparently, сосновый бор в покинутом Цуну.
Чей-то чужой сын
Sep. 30th, 2025 04:40 pmMirrored from Madam Nakamura-Branchevska.
“Он был очень красивый. Такие кудряшки, знаете? Мама его одуванчиком звала. И улыбался как дельфин.
Умный. Года в три такое сказал, вы не поверите! Учился хорошо, хотел доктором быть.
Талантливый – на саксофоне играл, лепил, роботов придумывал. И добрый – собак любил очень, у него их две было. В школе всем помогал, в хоспис ездил.
Он замечательный был, правда. Но его убили.
А мой на войну не пошел.